Thursday, August 31, 2006

The people are onto you...

Well I'm at it again because they're at it again. Our esteemed elected officials are out to ensure the American people receive no accountability in exchange for their votes.

Sen. Ted Stevens (R-AK) has placed a hold on a bill that would allow U.S. taxpayers to see where their tax money is going. If passed, the American public would be able to do a search online to see where their money is being spent.

You remember Ted Stevens don't you? He's the one who backed $223 million in funding for a bridge from Ketchikan, Alaska (pop. 8,000) to the island of Gravina (pop. 50). The bridge also called ""Bridge to Nowhere" would have improved access to Ketchikan's International Airport. Senator Stevens also backed the funding of $1.5 billion Knik Arm Bridge which was to cross the Knik Arm portion of Cook Inlet, north of Anchorage, allowing the population of Anchorage to expand.

Now this FREE database which would be operated by the Office of Management and Budget, is a wonderful idea. Here the American people would have some serious accountability for their tax dollars, what a concept! But the federal government seems to think that once the people hand over their hard-earned tax dollars, it no longer belongs to them but they are wrong. The American people who work hard and pay their share have a right to know how that money is being spent. The federal government has no right to "carte blanche" with our tax dollars. No, we elected them to represent us, they need to be responsible, they owe us answers.

You have to ask yourself why Ted Stevens would stall this bill. Perhaps it's because there might be some wording in it which would mislead us and he wants to clarify it? Doubtful. My guess is that as soon as the database opens up, millions of Americans will be flocking to it and find out what he and the rest of the "pork princes and princesses" in Congress are all about. And they sure as hell don't want us to know.

You should be contacting your elected officials and letting them know you want this passed. Demand accountability now. You don't work for them, they work for you!

Monday, August 28, 2006

Nagin's still a moron

How's that for a post title?

I watched 60 Minutes last night. I know, what was I thinking? After Mike Wallace interviewed Iran's President Ahmaninejad (which I refused to watch), I swore I was done with that program. But like a bad train wreck I could not turn my eyes away and watched the program last night.

Oy vey!

Last night's train wreck was an interview with Ray Nagin, mayor of the "Chocolate City". Oh sure he talks a good talk but a year later New Orleans is still in despair and he's talking about Trump Towers being built there. You know what? The people, however many voted for him, deserve what they get. When questioned as to why progress in New Orleans isn't moving faster he instead points the finger at NYC and says "hey you guys can't even get a hole in the ground filled" (referring to the site of the former twin towers) and says "let's be fair here". I looked at DH who was already shaking his head with that oh so recognizable "WTF" look. What could I say? I was in total agreement with him and neither of us had to say a word! And then we had to listen to Nagin's political advisor talk about how the white folks plan to turn New Orleans into some kind of playground for the rich and famous and all the black folks will be forced to stay out of the city.

When asked if he takes any responsibility for the deaths in New Orleans, surprisingly Nagin said yes. That surprised me. But did he say it BEFORE he was re-elected? Probably not.

What gets me is that simple PLANNING would have avoided this nightmare. If action had been taken not just in the days before Katrina hit, but in the years before it hit, those levies would not have been breached and there would have been a system to move people out of that city. Everybody in positions of power from the local up to the federal level knew the levies wouldn't hold and yet money for that project was diverted elsewhere.

The people of New Orleans had a responsibility. But all you will hear is that the poor people were left to fend for themselves while the white people packed up their families, gassed up their cars and escaped.

My opinion isn't popular with many but I will say it anyway. We are each responsible for our own lives and destinies. With that said, it is hard to break out of poverty and oppression if that is all you know. So the question is WHY didn't mayor Ray Nagin and his predecessors who say they care so much for the poor people of New Orleans have programs in place over the years to help get these black folks out of poverty and into good jobs and education? If they cared so much about these people, why didn't they do EVERYTHING in their power and beyond to change things? 13,000 people lived in public housing, most likely ALL of them have been displaced by the storm. Did they bear some responsibility? You bet ya. I can sit here all day and talk about how they could have fought the oppression and broken out of it but you know what? That won't solve anything, it's said and done. What angers me is that Nagin sat there blaming every single government agency but his own office. His inefficency caused a lot of injuries, property loss and death. Poor planning on his part, the part of the city, and the people who live there, caused great loss and destruction.

Now we'll be hearing about Katrina for at least the next two weeks, Katrina this, Katrina that, and Bush didn't do this and Bush didn't do that. It's as if the entire failure to prepare for Katrina was Bush's fault.

Nope, the failure to prepare lies with the people, Nagin, and the Governor of Louisiana.

In the meantime, Tropical Storm Ernest is about to hit Cuba and you'd think it was Armageddon. Jeb has already declared a state of emergency, but I wonder if it's out of hype and not logic. And if you think creating a state of emergency and all the bulletins on radio, tv and in print for the last 365 days begging people to be prepared for hurricane season has had an effect on people, I would have to say probably not, at least not those who never prepare. YOu're always going to have those who get as prepared as they can be and those who are still in denial that their area can suffer a direct hit.

Katrina in 2005 was only a category THREE storm.

Frances in 2004 was only a tropical storm when it covered the entire state of Florida for nearly three days, drenching us and causing power losses for up to three weeks for to MILLIONS of Floridians.

Jeanne in 2004 was a category THREE hurricane which caused millions of people (the same millions who lost power two weeks earlier) to lose it again, this time many lost it for much longer. Many hadn't even had their power restored yet when Jeanne hit.

Charley in 2004 was a category THREE hurricane when it made landfall causing millions in the central Florida area to lose power for weeks.

And finally Hurricane Andrew was a category FIVE hurricane when it made landfall with winds in excess of 165 MPH.

Andrew's aftermath:

Obliterated 102 miles of power lines & 300 towers
25,000 gallons of oil spilled into Biscayne Bay
7 million fish killed due to depleted oxygen in waterways
8% of all Florida agriculture destroyed
300 square miles of total devestation
1.3 million without electricity
2,200 traffic lights destroyed
90% of small businesses destroyed
1 Billion dollars damage in Louisiana
25 Billion dollars damage in Florida
In Homestead 80% of homes destroyed
10,000 acres of nurseries ruined
100,000 homes damaged
63,000 homes badly damaged
7,500 out of 26,000 families in Homestead left homeless
phone systems overwhelmed with 80,000 calls per minute
calls to police before Andrew 1,500 per day & after andrew 6,000 per day
14% of Dade County residents temporarily unemployed
300,000 homeless right after the storm
41 killed as a direct result of the storm
140,000 unemployed in Florida
1 week after andrew 300,000 still without power


If people still think it can't happen to them they are just plain crazy. If they refuse to put just a few $$ away each payday to buy supplies, if they don't realize they will need extra canned goods, flashlights, batteries, WATER, fuel, a generator to run fans, cash on hand, and every other thing that will help them keep SOME comforts of life in the aftermath, then I just don't know what to say.

I know it's hard at times because some people can't afford to do this, but done over a period of a year doesn't cost much. The most expensive thing is a generator. It's a one time purchase. It amazes me that after Frances, some people actually RETURNED their generators they had just purchased! And then two weeks later Jeanne hit.

It's like this folks, if you can afford a satellite or cable you can afford supplies. If you can afford high speed internet you can afford supplies. If you can go out for dinner a few times a month, you can afford supplies.

And remember this, we should ALL help each other out before and after the disaster. There's better survival in numbers. No person should have to go through it alone.

Sunday, August 27, 2006



















Here we go again! (Click on the pic to share the joy!)

This chart is very different from the one we saw last night. Last night it was headed towards New Orleans/Mississippi and now this thing is coming up towards us? Well so far they have it making landfall south of us but crossing over towards Jax. In the meantime, it's trek across the state would be just southeast of us and frankly I'm not too keen on that.

Great. Yeah I know, it's early but it was hell being hit by two of these f*ckers two weeks apart two years ago.

Guess DH will be getting out the generator today which is about a 5500 watt Coleman. He'll be changing the water in our barrels today, fill sandbags to put on the porch so the water doesn't get blown in the front door, and I'll start storing all the photos and things in a safe place. Thank goodness we're more than a foot off the ground and not in a flood zone. We have renter's insurance, this place is pretty solid, let's hope there are no problems. I hate this, I really do, it just throws your whole life out of whack when one of these hits. And even though a person's home is insured doesn't mean they're ok because all it takes is ONE claim and you get cancelled in this state. And if you're cancelled and cant get insurance (as most people in mobile homes whether they are newer like the one we live in or older like the one my parents have), then you have to go with the insurance of last resort which is Citizens Insurance and run by the state. The premiums are always much higher than private companies to force people to use it ONLY as a last resort. Most folks who live in these areas could not afford to go with citizens. The guy who owns our place lives in Orlando and he had to go through Citizen's. It's costing him quite a bit. I hate to see people who can't afford insurance have to choose between homeowner's insurance and medication ya know? Well there's a lot of people in this area like that.

I am very concerned about this and other storms for many reasons. I worry for those who are not able to handle the excessive heat if the power goes out and those whose homes are damaged during these storms and lose their insurance and can't afford either a new company or the state's insurance plan.

Well all we can do is be prepared. Plywood for windows, plenty of water for drinking, toilets and washing, canned food, and a gas stove helps. We don't have a gas stove but we have a barbecue grill and will use it. If the power goes out you just start using the perishables first. And have plenty of medication on hand. Those who lose power who have medical conditions have to find a cool spot somewhere, anywhere. And there's the pets, don't forget the pets, they need to be sheltered, fed, watered and kept out of the heat too.

If this thing comes this way it would be Thursday night, let's hope it just fizzles out or winds up just being a really light rain and a little wind.

Sometimes I really hate being in Florida!

Saturday, August 26, 2006

What my dad taught me...

Pops taught us a lot growing up including appreciating Star Trek. I have it on all day on Saturdays while I am working on my class assignments. I guess it's sentimental because we used to watch it with dad when we were kids. Dad's the kind of guy who can watch the first three minutes and know exactly what the entire episode is about. Back in 1997 I recorded a Sci-Fi marathon in which I recorded seven tapes worth of ST episodes.

Well this Saturday is no different, I just watched "The Trouble With Tribbles" on the G4 network's all day Star Trek Saturday and OMG I was laughing my ass off again. Truly you had to actually watch it to appreciate the humor in it. But you trekkies will appreciate the following script from my favorite scene in the bar...


Klingons: The earthers like those fuzzy things, don't they? Well, frankly, I never liked earthers. They remind me of Regulan blood worms.

Chekov: That Cossack.

Scotty: Easy, lad. You ought to be more forgiving.

Chekhov: No.

Klingon: I just remembered. There is one earth man who doesn't remind me of a Regulan blood worm. That's Kirk. A Regulan blood worm is soft and shapeless, but Kirk isn't soft. Kirk may be a swaggering,overbearing, tin-plated dictator with delusions of godhood, but he's not soft.

Scotty to Chekhov: Take it easy, lad. Everybody's entitled to an opinion.

Klingon: That's right, and if I think that Kirk is a Denibian slime devil, well, that's my opinion, too.

Scotty holding Chekhov back from punching the Klingon: Don't do it, and that's an order.

Chekov: You heard what he called the captain.

Scotty: Forget it. It's not worth fighting for. We're big enough to take a few insults. Now, drink your drink.

Klingon: Of course, I'd say that Captain Kirk deserves his ship. We like the Enterprise. We -- we really do. That sagging old rust bucket is designed like a garbage scow. Half the quadrant knows it. That's why they're learning to speak Klingoni.

Scotty: Laddie, don't you think you should ...rephrase that?

Klingon: You're right. I should. I didn't mean to say that the Enterprise should be hauling garbage. I meant to say that it should be hauled away as garbage.

A fight breaks out and Kirk investigates: I want to know who started it. I'm waiting.
Freeman, who started the fight?

Freeman: I don't know, sir.

Kirk: All right. Chekov. I know you. You started it, didn't you?

Chekov: No, sir, I didn't.

Kirk: Who did?

Chekov: I don't know, sir.

Kirk: "I don't know, sir." I want to know who threw the first punch. (Silence) All right You're all confined to quarters until I find out who started it. Dismissed. Scotty, not you. You were supposed to prevent trouble, Mr. Scott.

Scott: Aye, Captain.

Kirk: Who threw the first punch?

Scotty: Um ...

Kirk: Scotty.

Scotty: I did, Captain.

Kirk: You did, Mr. Scott? What caused it, Scotty?

Scotty: They insulted us, sir.

Kirk: Must have been some insult.

Scotty: Aye, it was.

Kirk: You threw the first punch.

Scotty: Aye. Chekov wanted to, but I held him back.

Kirk: You held -- Why did Chekov want to start a fight?

Scotty: Um ... well, the Klingons, sir ... Is this off the record?

Kirk: No. This is not off the record.

Scotty: Well, Captain, uh ... the Klingons called you, uh ... a tin-plated, overbearing, waggering dictator with delusions of godhood.

Kirk: Is that all?

Scotty: No, sir. They also compared you with a Denibian slime devil.

Kirk: I get the picture.

Scotty: Yes, sir.

Kirk: After they said all this, that's when you hit the Klingons?

Scotty: No, sir.

Kirk: No?

Scotty: No, uh ... I didn't. You told us to avoid trouble.

Kirk: Oh, yes.

Scotty: Well, I didn't see that it was worth fighting about. After all, we're big enough to take a few insults. Aren't we?

Kirk: What was it they said that started the fight?

Scotty: They called the Enterprise a garbage scow ... sir.

Kirk: I see. And ... that's when you hit the Klingons?

Scott: Yes, sir.

Kirk: You hit the Klingons because they insulted the Enterprise, not because they ...

Scotty: Well, sir, this was a matter of pride.

Kirk: All right, Scotty. Dismissed. Oh ... Scotty, you're restricted to quarters until further notice.

Scotty: Yes, sir. Thank you, sir. That'll give me a chance to catch up on my technical journals.



Do ya see what I mean? Just too damned funny!!!

Thursday, August 24, 2006

You know school's open when...

Scene #1

Student: "Do you know where my class is?"

Me: "What class?" (as if I read minds too. No, they don't pay me enough to do that!)

Student: "Some biology class"

Me: "Uh Biology? Do you know the course number?"

Student: "No"

Me: "Well uh didn't you check your class schedule?"

Student: "I didn't think about it"

Me: "Really?"

Student: "Yeah"

Me: "You know, if you don't do anything else this term, it's probably a good idea to know the course numbers of the courses you are taking"

Student: "Can you just tell me where it is?"

Me: "No, I don't know what course you are talking about"

Student: "Well can you look up my registration and tell me?"


Scene #2

Student: "Hey uh can you tell me what classes are being held in this building? I can't remember where my class is?"

Me: "What??"

Student: "Well I'm not sure but I know it's in this building somewhere"

Me: "Do you know WHAT class?

Student: "No"

Me: "Wait, you left for campus not knowing where your class is or what it is?"

Student: "I got up late, I know it's in this building. Does it help if I tell you I'm a Liberal Arts major?"

Me: "Uh no"

Student: "Well can you look up a building schedule for me and tell me where it is?"

Me: "How can I tell you where it is if I don't know what you're taking?"

Student: "Can you look up my schedule?"


Scene #3

Student: "Hi, I need some advisement..."

Me: "Well, are you an undergrad?" (I recognized he wasn't one of our grads so he had to be an undergrad in our dept)

Student: "Yes"

Me: "You need to see (insert person's name) down the hall, she can help you"

Student: "But she's not in"

Me: "well then you need to visit her office again later to see her"

Student: "can't you help me? I am not sure which course to take for my specialization"

Me: "I can't help you because my specialty is working with graduate students"

Student: "Well can you at least pull up my degree audit and look at it?"

Me: "No, I don't do degree audits, I don't work with undergradautes. My best advice is that you really need to see (insert person's name). She is the expert on all things undergraduate"

Student: Well it's just one little thing, maybe you know it. Do you know when she will be in?"

Me: "I wouldn't have a clue"

Student: "Well if you see her later can you ask her to call me?"

Me: "No, I probably will not see her and I would advise that you either email or call her and leave a message and make an appointment with her"

Student: "Well I have a fraternity dinner tonight and I have to go home and change"

Me: "Well I guess you will just have to visit her office tomorrow and sit outside and wait"



Mind you, these are adult college students who mommy and daddy sent out on their own with a big fat hug, a room full of crap from Target, a brand new SUV, a great high school education, and yet they lack in one important area.

Common sense.

Yes, this too shall pass. Thank God for Thanksgiving and Christmas breaks!

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Blame Whitey...

Spike Lee is so annoying. Why on earth would he stoop so low as make an HBO documentary claiming the US government blew up the levies in New Orleans?

In a recent interview he said "just because nobody saw it doesn't mean it didn't happen"

Spike Lee figures he can continue to make millions by playing the race card. Instead of taking the time to create an artistic, well-thought out creative motion picture, he takes the easy route which I like to call "blame whitey". That's my generic term for the excuse that everything that goes wrong in America which negatively affects even one dark-skinned American, can be blamed on the white man.

There's not one shred of evidence the government blew up the levies. And what would be the point? To get rid of the blacks? It's insane. And it's not true. There's documented evidence that local, state and federal government KNEW the levies wouldn't hold. But nobody did anything about it. Ray Nagin sure as hell didn't go above and beyond to protect his "chocolate city" now did he?

People like Spike Lee make millions by playing the race card. It works because there are still millions of ignorant people out there who believe that light skinned people in America hate their dark-skinned neighbors. Sure there are whites who hate blacks but those same whites hate everyone else too. They hate Jews, Catholics, homosexuals and anyone not like them. So Spike Lee shouldn't feel all warm and fuzzy that a certain minority group in America hates him because he's black.

New Orleans is a corrupt city, Nagin is a corrupt mayor. I've been to the city twice, and as historical as it was and as much as I liked that part of it, I thought it was filthy and disgusting. I wouldn't have moved there if you paid me big bucks to do it. I wonder how much money and time Spike Lee donated to the people of New Orleans before Katrina? I wonder how much he really cared before he was able to make a buck off them and feed on their misery with his "blame whitey" film.

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Retrospect...

Ok I can't get to my transcript because grades haven't been posted but I did get around that by checking my degree audit and yep there's the "A" so now I know, it's official.

Other good news is that since 8/5 I have lost a total of 3 1/4 inches and 8 pounds. Deb and I weigh ourselves Tuesday I'd like to think I will show more progress. I keep walking and keeping close to my points. The good thing is that we're allotted an extra 35 points per week beyond our regular points and I still have 25 left. I went over my allowable 31 per day a few days but because I walk so much, the extra points are pulled from my exercise first. Overall in the past seven days, I averaged 35 points per day in food. Each point is 50 calories so it's about 1750 calories per day. That's not too bad, not at all considering that my 31 allowable points = 1550 calories. I'm really keeping an eye on what I'm eating and trying to keep low points so I can eat more.

I wish DH would do this with me but he has to want to. He's wanting to work out at the gym on weights a few times a week, that's a start. But he loves to drink his beer on Friday and Saturday nights and isn't all that keen on walking with me at 4 am in the mornings. When it gets cooler he'll walk with me in the evenings. He does eat pretty healthy but then again I cook the meals and he's willing to eat anything even if it's "healthy" but as long as it tastes good. That's my philosophy too. One thing is certain. As much as I think it's important he take care of his health (I don't want either of us winding up disabled by Type II diabetes and heart problems later on), I have to do this for me, with or without him. A good friend helped me see the light on that issue. I'll always support DH in his quest to be the best he can be and he's been very supportive of me through this. But I can't put my health on hold waiting for anyone, no matter who it is. I'd like to think I'm a positive influence for him, I have been and I will continue to be. WHen he's ready to join me, he will. After all, he wanted to quit smoking for years and finally did it with the help of a hypnotist back in December and he never looked back. He really wanted it, so he did it.

Thanks Deb for helping me realize that I gotta do what is best for me no matter what others around me are doing!

I still feel energetic, positive and motivated. I am not at all concerned about the six hours I am taking this semester and not at all feeling pressured by the demands of my job. I am responsible for a lot, my students count on me, I solve a lot of problems, put out a lot of fires. I've been at this place for nearly thirteen years, seven in my current position, sometimes it gets to the point where I'm like "do I really want to do this?"

Just a few weeks ago I was ready to give it up, now I'm into the mode of thinking that I have bigger goals. DH and I are utilizing our employee tuition waivers to get an education. He, the ultimate "hands-on" guy wants to be a welder and I want to do something good with my history degree, maybe even pursue graduate school someday. I just want to enjoy whatever it is I'm doing, we both do. So we're trying to use this time working where we are, to pay off our debt, invest in our IRA's, save some money for emergencies, get an education and maybe become better people in our own way.

I know tomorrow when I go to work it's going to be hell. School starts Wednesday and the students are pretty much back already. Last Friday was orientation, there's going to be a LOT of students with questions. There are fires to be put out and problems to be solved, I have them on my task list in Outlook. I won't even know where to begin but I guess I'll start with the first priority and work my way down but it won't be easy. And that will be my life for the next 6 weeks. In the meantime I gotta keep up with the house and my schoolwork and my walking and taking care of me. I began this new life quest during my break. I was pretty much finished with my class and things at work were slowing down. Now the pace will pick up and I have to pick up with it. I'm not going to say "I hope I can do it"...I have to do it.

Going back to my old ways is not an option :)

Saturday, August 19, 2006

Hell hath arrived...

Well, seasonally speaking, the summer is still upon us and it's hot as hell here in Florida, which by the way is a place I affectionaly nicknamed "hell" so really the weather is perfect. Technically though, for educational purposes it's now fall term, public schools and colleges are back in action and isn't it interesting that I refer to that as hell too?

People who live and/or work in a college town can relate to the nightmare referred to as fall semester.

It's upon us. Oh God, where's the valium?

Friday, August 18, 2006

19 hours awake

Why am I sitting here attempting to write out my grocery list if I know I am so dead tired? Got up at 3 am this morning because I felt like my body had enough sleep. Went walking from 3:15 - 4 pm and then showered, made the lunches, breafast and got out of here at the usual time which is 6:15. The new grad student orientation was today and it went well. Seven years after having taken this job, this thing runs itself. I used to run around like a chicken with its head cut off now the damn event runs itself.

Got off work, came home and changed and went to my usual Friday second job which is cleaning the new home of a friend's dad who has Parkinson's and can't do it himself. Hey it's the easiest $85 for two hours worth of work I could ever do. But it does hurt my lower back sometimes if I get too involved in my cleaning LOL.

Got home, proceeded to throw a salad together, do some cleanup, clean the bathroom floors, fold laundry, and then just when I was ready to go to bed I realized I have this damn grocery list to put together for tomorrow morning. So I took a 5 mg valium and went into the office to do my list and wound up writing in this stilly blog.

Right now I've been awake 19 hours and frankly I am seeing double LOL. It's really quite funny. I should get in the car and drive--JUST KIDDING!

4 AM is going to come quick, yes even though it will be Saturday I'm still getting up at 4 am to walk. I must be insane.

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Milestones...

Today I was thinking of some milestones that hit this year which are rather important to me (in no particular order)

1) DH quit smoking 9 months ago
2) Dad won his case with social security disability
3) I began my successful battle against depression, am losing weight and feeling great
4) DH and I moved into a bigger place
5) I hit 12 years at this institution, the last 7 of them in my current position
6) My sister got a great new job which makes her happy
7) My papaw died back in May at the age of 91
8) My grandmothers are both still living...mamaw in Georgia is 85 and grams is 89
9) My mom is getting her "creative" talents back after many years on hiatus
10) Eight months after their falling out, my DH and my family still do not get along
11) DH and I have been married five years
12) I earned A's in the night classes I took this year
13) I have become closer to my best friend Deb
14) I left a couple of discussion forums I was a member of for years and never looked back.
15) Reconnected on a deeper level with my friend Susan (aka ST on my blog), we've known each other since 8th grade (1983).
16) I finally figured out what I want to do with the rest of my life... be HAPPY!
17) I've been blogging continuously nearly every day since January 1st and it has really helped me get things out that I normally would have held in!

All of these things had a major impact on my life so they were worth noting.

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Elvis has not left the building...

Considering the fact that my father was THE Elvis fan in our family, and that I actually remember where I was and what I was doing when he died, I am surprised I missed the anniversary of his death which is today. I mean given all the stuff I have to do in my life it's amazing I didn't have time to fit in some kind of tribute to the "King".

Ok so here goes....it was August 1977 and I was two months short of my 8th birthday. We lived at the house on 185th street in Miami. I remember my mom telling me Elvis had died and when dad came home from work he put on his Elvis records in tribute.

I liked Elvis, well I didn't actually know him, I liked his music, especially his gospel music. Who wouldn't like his Gospel music? I think it was his best stuff because it's the music he put his heart and soul into. Oh his rock and roll was great, but his Gospel was the stuff of his youth, what was in his genes, he was born to sing it.

Only hours after his death, Elvis was resurrected by God so he could travel the world in search of the perfect peanut butter and 'nanna sandwich. In that quest he has been spotted in the UNLV Library in Vegas, Nashville, Roswell New Mexico, Vologda and Moscow Russia, the North Pole, Calais France, shopping at an Oklahoma City Walmart, North Carolina, NYC, Ft. Wayne Indiana, Norway, Disneyland in California, walking on a road in West Bend Wisconsin, sitting in a hot tub at a Super 8 Motel in North Dakota, fishing in New Brunswick Canada, a woman's bathtub in Lancashire England, a Chip and Dales nightclub, a trailer park in Tennessee, the Boston Lobsterfest, Burger King in Duluth Minnesota, the canned vegetable aisle of a grocery store in Tesco England, in a van with a woman and six kids in Huddersfield England, a high school cafeteria in Farmington Utah, a 7-11 in Ontario, a cafe in Edinburgh Scotland, Karaoke night in Preston Idaho, a polo club in Colorado, McDonald's in Kalamazoo, Charlotte County Florida fairgrounds, the Rocky Mountain Oyster Bar, a Goodwill store in Ohio, running down the street outside a mall in Birmingham Alabama, a Circuit City in Port Charlotte Florida, Hard Rock Cafe in Chicago, Sonny's pit barbecue in Florida, shoveling camel feces in Asuncion Peru, and at the juice bar in a fitness center in Fort Worth Texas.....

Woah there!

Ok folks now I'm pretty damn sure of one thing, Elvis would not have been at a juice bar in a fitness center, no way. That one someone DEFINITELY made up! How can somebody think we'd buy that one? Geesh!!!

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Taking the high road...

Someone I know as an acquaintance thanked me today for being so wise. It's not someone I would expect to say that to me, but I was honored. She's having personal issues with a couple of other individuals. I said "hey I am not involved and don't want to be but I am going to tell you something I tell my husband because he gets angry at times and wants to confront people when they act like assholes".

I said "you have two choices, either let loose and be angry and give them hell or let it roll." You see I tend to think there are times we have to really defend ourselves and times when we have to step back and ask if the words we want to say or actions we want to do are merely to satisfy our own need for vengeance or simply the last word. Her words and actions would have only made things worse. She might not have felt worse, but one or both of the other two might have. Is it worth it to be mean just to get the last word in? Why make a bad situation worse?

She listened to me. A few hours later she came up to me and gave me a hug and thanked me. She thanked ME. I was overwhelmed. Finally someone agreed with me just one time that being the more honorable person, taking the high road, was the right thing to do.

I have to ask myself this a lot---when I am about to react to a person or situation--will lashing out and making the other person feel bad make me feel better? No, it does not. DH thinks I need to get tough but I like me the way I am. I have always been this way, and I feel no need to change. Defending myself is one thing, but vengeance and retribution is quite another. I'm sorry, but being mean makes me feel bad and it makes me feel dirty. I don't like feeling that way so I try like hell not to do it.

It just made me feel good that I helped someone take a step to be a better person.

Monday, August 14, 2006

Da semester is over!

Someone, let's just say it's YOURS TRULY finished her final exam and my overall average is a 92.5% and that my friends is an "A". Bye bye ancient Greek and Rome, Venuses of Laussel and Willendorf, Stonehenge, Lauscaux, cave paintings, Prehistoric, Neolithic, Paleolithic, Near east, Islamic, Asian, Aegean, Etruscan, Near East, Gothic, Romanesque and Gothic art and architecture. Bye bye to staying up all hours of the night reading and researching the Parthenon in a quest for the perfect term paper. Wll it was damn near perfect, I did earn a 98 on it!

Hello Social Problems and Biology, my fall courses.

Someone actually laughed at me (yeah at me, can you believe that?) when I said I was taking this particular Sociology course so I could learn how to find solutions to problems. I was told "man if you want a skate class take a lower level sociology with an easy professor" and I said "I don't want a skate class, I want challenging". I also don't want an "easy" professor who doesn't require to work, how am I going to learn if I'm just given a grade? I want to earn it.

I'm taking this course with a good solid professor with a real background in social work. I'm not taking this course because it might be easy, actually it is a very challenging course. I'm taking it because I'd like to think in broader terms, see things from a new perspective and perhaps gain the knowledge that will enable me to make change. Social problems are important to me and understanding the root and learning to think in terms that will allow me to embrace viable and even alternative solutions is important to me. It should be important to everyone in college. Unfortunately it's not.

You get out what you put in. I am a consistent "A" student. I write strong research papers, I put a lot of effort into assignments and readings. I take this stuff seriously. It isn't about being rich or famous, it's about the knowledge which gives me the tools to go forth in the world and do incredible things.

Isn't that what education is all about?

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Stupid people shouldn't park...

Today's local paper had a big write-up about the unfairness of roam towing around town. The front page depicted a picture of a college girl walking away from a tow truck with her friend's brand new Cadillac SUV hooked up and being towed away. In the article certain county commissioners spoke about how the rules of roam towing need to be revised. As it stands, those who have contracts to do roam towing can only charge a maximum of $76 for towing and storage for 24 hours. Most of the companies require cash payments, not credit cards or checks.

There were stories of people who had parked at an apartment complex and run up to a friend's apartment to drop something off and came back to see their vehicle had been towed. There were complaints that people who were towed just didn't see the roam towing sign. (Not paying attention is NOT an excuse!) Another person interviewed in the article complained that college students have particular issues with the payment method because they don't always have cash readily available.

These people make me want to pull my hair out!

We live in an overpopulated college town. Like good paying jobs and places to hang out that don't include anyone under the age of 25, parking spots are hard to find. Apartment complexes and businesses have opted to work with towing companies to tow vehicles which should not be parked there. Granted, some of these companies have occasionally towed vehicles that were parked legitimately but most of the 26,000 cars towed in the past two years were parked illegally. Now commissioners want to revisit the roam towing idea and include more rules like removing roam towing from some and simply being fined instead of towed, requiring tow truck drivers to take digital pictures before they tow(to be sure the vehicle is being towed legally) and companies will be forced to accept credit cards, which frankly I think is crap. A private business should be able to decide what kind of payments to accept.

I have no ties or interest in the towing industry, what bothers me is the mentality of these people who complain. They violate the rules, and then when things don't go their way, they expect the government intervene on their behalf. And the sad thing is the government DOES it!

Why?

It's all about the votes.

Saturday, August 12, 2006

Latest UN resolution a sham...

I'm disgusted and angry over this UN proposal. Not because I don't want peace, but because I do want peace and appeasing terrorists is not the path to peace. It's the path to eventual destruction.

Fifteen thousand UN peacekeepers aren't going to solve the real problem. Sure they'll buffer the zone but that doesn't get to the heart of the problem. And that problem is terrorist groups targeting Israel for the purpose of complete destruction of the nation and the people.

While I feel terrible for all the innocent lives lost in this on both sides, a nation who concedes to terrorists is a nation who will eventually fall. My conscience will not let me agree with this UN resolution. The UN is useless, resolutions are useless unless enforced, which in most cases, depending on how beneficial it is to the UN, they are not.

We refuse to pull our troops out of Iraq because we don't want the deaths of all these soldiers, US, Iraqi civilians and those of other nations who have died there, to be in vain. We want to accomplish the mission which we are told is to rid Iraq of the terrorist faction and help the people establish democracy and secure their own country. Using the same mode of thinking, the US can't possibly support the UN's latest resolution to halt fighting between Israel and Hezbollah. It would mean that Israel's defense of itself, the killing of so many on all sides, was all in vain, all for nothing.

It wasn't for nothing. Fighting for freedom from terrorism can't be for nothing and there can be no compromise. The extremist factions of Islam who terrorize the free world are not radical religious groups, they are a political movement hell bent on the destruction of the Jewish people, and the enforcement of their own archaic civil code upon the governments of the free world.

How can our own President back this resolution when he tells the American people at least once a week that we will not give in to terrorists?

Friday, August 11, 2006

Tag..you're it!

Well shit I've "done been tagged" LOL.

My cyber-blog pal Robin who lives not far from me has bestowed upon me the honor of answering some questions....

1. One book that changed your life:
Tuesdays with Morrie

2. One book that you’ve read more than once:
Black Beauty

3. One book you’d want on a desert island:
Anything involving conspiracy theories

4. One book that made you laugh:
Lucky You

5. One book that made you cry:
The Diary of Anne Frank

6. One book that you wish had been written:
How to get the people you love to do what you want them to do

7. One book that you wish had never been written:
Mein Kampf

8. The book you are currently reading: (Usually have two going at once)
The Essential Thomas Jefferson & Don't know much about the Civil War

9. One book you’ve been meaning to read:
The Five People You Meet in Heaven

My turn to tag some folks.

I tag Belle-ah because she's my neighbor in another state and I love her taste in decorating, Debbie in Jersey because I know she's got nothing better to do right now LOL, and finally RedQueen because I know she loves to read.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Keep me away from your grill!

My pal D's post over at her new blog about her recent "adventures in barbecuing" made me think of something that happened to me about five years ago.

Let's just say that it wasn't my idea to buy the barbecue grill. DH had been on me for months about going to Lowe's (his second favorite store next to Home Depot) to buy a grill. Finally I relented. After looking around at all the big man-size testosterone producing grills that we couldn't afford and were damn near bigger than the house we lived in, reality hit us and we finally went over to the section of the store where they kept the grills made for middle class folks like us. We picked out one of those Aussie walkabout grills, and after picking out the necessary utensils, a very large bag of briquets and lighter fluid, we wound up dropping near $100 on the whole mess.

All this because DH wanted a steak.

We get it home, fill it with charcoal, lighter fluid, lit it and whoosh....a fire a mile high into the air, and we figured all was well. Five minutes later it was out. (Ok nobody told us the lighter fluid needs to soak into the charcoals). So what does DH do? He gets it lit again and takes a half bottle of lighter fluid and soaks the coals while they're burning. Uh hello? Can anyone say "fire department?"

Well after finally getting the damn coals to take, we had the wind to deal with. The coals were taking a long time time to turn gray and our first day of grilling didn't pan out. It took us two days to try and get a decent fire going so we could cook steaks, and on Sunday when I finally got a nice fire at 6 pm when it was already dark, the steaks cooked but it took forever. We were willing to give the grill one more shot. The following weekend we tried again. So there we were, me, DH, the grill, lots of wind and no fire. And we'd just about used up the bottle of lighter fluid. I was willing to keep trying and not give up. DH didn't feel that way. He had enough.

He turns to me and says "I'm taking the grill to work and giving it to someone there" and something in me at that moment just snapped. I was hot, tired, annoyed to the hilt and not in the mood for this crap. We had dropped damn near $70 just for that grill and I had spent hours over the course of the weekend trying to get that damn thing to heat right and he wants to give it away? I said "oh no f'in way" and we got into an argument. Finally after he kept insisting he was getting rid of it, I lost it.

What happens next you could blame on temporary insanity. I remember doing it, and I remember enjoying it, that's the really sick part.

I went over to the hot grill, kicked it over so the coals would fall out, then I picked it up by the legs (which folded) and I swung it as hard as I could against this huge oak tree. And there I was in the backyard screaming at him "you're going to give this grill to who?" while I'm beating the shit out of this grill, or rather maybe I was beating the tree, I don't know. All I know is that while I was swinging that grill with all my might, words came out of my mouth that would make a Robert DeNiro/Joe Pesci film look like a Disney flick. When I was finished only the tree and me (and DH--fortunately for him) were left standing. That poor grill had the shit beaten out of it so bad the legs came off and the entire top was smashed in.

I must admit, I do great work. I threw the thing on the ground, looked dead at him and said "now you can give it away" and I went in the house.

A year later we bought a Weber grill and never had a problem. We still have it and it cooks wonderfully and we enjoy it very much. I wouldn't think of beating the hell out of it, but then again DH wouldn't dare think of saying a word about giving it away either.

CBS stoops to another low...

There are so many fascinating people in America and around the world to interview. There are people who help others, who promote freedom, teach in schools, start businesses, overcome incredible disabilities, fight oppression, invent new products, fight corruption....the list of people who do amazing things in this world is endless.

So why is it with all those people he could interview, Mike Wallace would choose to interview Mahmoud Ahmadinejad? A man who promotes the complete destruction of two nations--Israel and the United States. Is this what television journalism has come to? Interviewing terrorists? Giving them a voice over the American airwaves?

By interviewing this lunatic, CBS has essentially implied he has something worthwhile to say. I don't think any person who promotes terrorism and the complete annihilation of any country has anything worthwhile to say. I for one will not be watching that interview.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Well two out of three isn't bad...

The bad news is Joe Lieberman lost the primary.

The good news is he will be back in the race as an Independent.

The better news is that Cynthia McKinney won't be gracing the US Capitol with her presence next year. It's kinda sad though because I enjoyed watching her make a fool of herself in public. Actually I don't think we've seen the last of Cynthia McKinney, not by a long shot. I am sure she'll be sticking her nose in the middle of all kinds of shit bringing attention to herself.

Of course you know why she lost don't you? It's not her fault. It's the fault of those damn racist white folks. Poor Cynthia.

Come-uppance just bites doesn't it?

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Annoying drivers...

Can I just say for the record that it is TERRIBLY annoying when we are are on our way to work in the mornings on rural country roads and some jackass (usually more than one) decides to pass us at intersections, railroad tracks, hills and solid lines! Every single morning we have some redneck asshat (in the occasional car but usually in pickup trucks with either the #3 or #8 plastered on back or a stenciled buck on their back windshield) who in such a hurry because he didn't leave early enough. So he passes every vehicle in sight, and where does he wind up? Stuck at the next intersection behind a line of cars.

And what's worse than that is having said asshats tailing you on the entrance ramp to the interstate or trying to go around you when you're attempting to merge into interstate traffic.


Can you believe there's actually a book to help people drive like idiots? Trust me, I know the folks who piss me off every morning don't use a manual, I'd be very surprised if any of them could actually read one.

And while I'm having to deal with all these jerks, DH is in the passenger seat hollering that I should be giving "brake checks" to the guys who tail me. Uh-hello? I don't do brake checks at high speeds, hell I try not to do them anymore period. I have told him this over and over again and he isn't grasping it. I'm driving, I do what I think is safe. Even if it's at a slow speed, I don't do brake checks because I don't want some guy hitting us from behind. And imagine touching your brakes lightly at high speed and soem guy being too close. You can get yourself killed. And then there's the guys on the road who like to carry guns and shoot people who piss them off. I don't want to mess with some redneck whose going to pull out a gun and shoot us. I used to do brake checks but I don't do them anymore. But I do slow down just a tad bit, but not enough to cause an accident.

DH doesn't seem to grasp my mode of thinking. He thinks I am letting these people bully me by letting them tailgate me. I think I am doing the smart thing and not lowering myself to their stupidity. I say to DH I'm tired of hearing it and he says "because you know I'm right".

Yeah, uh-huh, that's it.

Monday, August 07, 2006

In defense of Joe Lieberman...

I'll admit I wasn't a fan of Joe Lieberman when he was Al Gore's running mate. Long after Al Gore lost the election and I started really listening to Joe Lieberman, I found I liked him. He seems to be a genuinely nice guy with the interests of the American people at heart. He seems to take his job seriously and values the trust his constituents have in him. He appears to be an man of integrity which is so hard to find in a politician.

To be honest with you, I feel bad I judged Joe Lieberman based upon his horse's ass of a running mate. But shit happens.

Joe Lieberman is taking a big risk. By standing up for his principles and for being friendly with the President, he is risking his political future in Washington. For that his Democrat colleagues chastise him publicly, implying he's a "turncoat".

So basically, what the Dems are saying is that party comes before principle.

And to think they call themselves the party of the people!!!!

Sunday, August 06, 2006

The"B" in "B" movies stands for "bad"...

First off, I used to think the Sci-Fi channel was as they say "all that" but I gotta tell ya that it's been years, many years since I have seen a decent worthwhile movie on that channel. Frankly I call it the "hokey channel" because everything is so stupid it's ridiculous. I think they should have to air a warning before the movie airs, something lik:

"Warning! Really shitty movie ahead, if you watch it then you're just as much a moron as the people who starred in it, produced, directed and financed it"

Yeah Sci-Fi is supposed to be somewhat on the unbelievable side but the SF channel goes to the extreme. It's not just unbelievable, it's unbelievably stupid. It's worse than the strings that kept the starship enterprise floating in the old Star Trek series.

Last night there was just nothing on television and so I was forced to watch a movie on Sci-Fi called "The Black Hole". No it wasn't the awesome blockbuster from the 80's, it was a new 2006 movie with Judd Nelson and Kristy Swanson. Ok those two names should have done it for me but I thought "hey maybe Judd might be pretty good?" I was so wrong!

Now in all honesty, no one physically forced me to watch this, but you know how you just can't turn your head away from a train wreck? Well that's the same feeling I had with this movie. It sucked but I couldn't turn away.

The premise was that some nuclear experiment in some lab in St. Louis created a black hole and there was this electrical "entity" that had something to do with it. They had to get rid of the entity to get rid of the black hole that was swallowing the midwest, starting with St. Louis. Yeah it was more complicated than that, and Judd's character explained it in the movie but I couldn't follow. I mean there's just something wrong with the Breakfast Club's Judd Nelson explaining tears in the time space fabric. If they thought giving him wild hair, nerdy glasses and facial hair made him look like a nuclear scientist they were sadly mistaken.

The movie was "B" at best ("B" meaning BAD) until that moment they brought the military people into it. Then it just got worse.

What was the military's solution to this black hole?

Drop a nuclear bomb into it.

Yeah no surprise there.

And then as if it couldn't get worse, this team of special forces was sent to this sub station to try and trap the entity (who was attracted to high amounts of electricity) in this magnetic coil box so they could send it back through the tear in the time space fabric. These special forces armed themselves with automatic weapons (I know I know I was laughing too) and they were acting as if they were doing military maneuvers, rolling on the ground, hiding behind buildings with their little auto weapons peeking out. They even tried shooting at it. And the whole time I'm like "uh HELLO WTF are you shooting at?" cause there's nothing THERE!!!

As usual in the end, the star/hero saved the world and all was well. And as usual I beat my head against the wall for being sucked into another really shitty Sci-Fi movie.

But it made my morning today when I got an email from dad bitching about the guys with the automatic weapons too. That was the best part of all this because it just goes to show that the apple doesn't fall far from the tree.

Saturday, August 05, 2006

Hotmail driving me crazy....

Hello, is anyone at hotmail home? Because I blocked a certain address and I keep getting email from it?

It's driving me crazy. Someone is sending email to an address that used to be used by one of the members of my "myfamily.com" site and no matter what I do I keep getting the shit. I'll be really pissed if I have to change my email address.

Friday, August 04, 2006

Metamorphosis of sorts...

Back in January I came to realize I wasn't really the person I wanted to be. I guess I wasn't overly thrilled with my life. I think I got so caught up in trying to point out other people's faults, I neglected to see my own, which like any human being, are many. I really wasn't sure how to make the changes but I figured that if I prayed, if I talked to friends and family and told them of this burden, maybe they could help point me in the right direction. Now it didn't happen overnight but it did begin and it's still going. Finally after many years, I think I'm moving in the right direction.

I've been walking lately, it's been really good for me. I never am able to fit exercise into the evening so decided to go back to my old routine of walking in the mornings. Several years ago I lived back home with mom and dad. I'd get up at about 4 am and go walking with my headphones tuned into Art Bell's overnight talk radio program. I'd walk about 45 minutes and feel great. Afterwards I'd have breakfast, usually a yogurt and a banana then I'd shower, dress and head off to work feeling rejuvenated. Well lately I've been getting up at 4 am and out the door in ten minutes. On Tuesday I walked 4-4:45, Wednesday was 4:10-4:40 and today it was 4:10 -5:05. Not bad eh?

I'm also watching what I eat. I joined Weight Watchers online and Deb and I meet every Tuesday for lunch and discuss our progress. We decided we would be our own WW meeting and at least we could journal our progress online and track our eating and exercise to get a better hold on things. My problem area still seems to be dinner/snacks. I used to use the WW point system and ate a lot of low point items and was full during the day, but it seems I'm still eating some high point items I might have to let go. For instance I don't eat Yoplait anymore since I found something in it one time. But we eat Breyer's 98.5% fat free yogurt but it is five points. I could go with something better for half that. But I enjoy Breyers and it's what I buy for DH and me. I can switch though at least for me. See this just comes down to buying what's healthier. And another thing, I can't keep ice cream in the house.....because I have a bowl and not a simple 1/2 cup and that's dangerous. I used to think it was better to keep a certain food out of the house but I don't think so. That's because the only way to overcome something is to meet it head on and learn to incorporate the change into your everyday life. I will at some point in my life have ice cream in the house, so I have to learn to have just 1/2 cup and not a bowl which is probably more like 2 cups. Let's just say this week my eating was--well on a scale from 1-10 with 1 being it sucked and 10 being the most healthy, I was about a 6. I could be better, I used all my extra points. The tracker starts over Monday and I know I can do better.

I'm still in school, in the evenings of course. I took a great Art History course this summer and have but one test left and I have completed the study guide so I await the test on August 14th. I have been able to take the course via Open Campus which means that it is Web CT based, in that we have a textbook we read, but all discussions, quizzes and tests are online. Also, we upload our term papers and assignments to WebCT for the instructor to download and grade. It works out great. I always enjoy in-class interaction but it saved me gas this term not to have to be present in the classroom! I'm registered for two more courses in the Fall which are Sociology and Biology, both of which I will enjoy. Six hours is a lot, and I thought of doing one via Open Campus and one in the classroom but I decided that I could manage my time doing them both from home. It will be a lot of work. DH has his class Monday and Wednesday night 630-930 so during that time I will have quiet uninterrupted time to work on my studies. Not that he bothers me, he never does, but I won't distract myself by wanting to talk to him. I have my schedule laid out and at 6 hours per term I still won't finish this till Summer or Fall 2008. What a bummer. But every semester I take just one or two courses is still farther ahead than if I had done nothing at all, right?

I had posted Monday about my doctor's appointment but something happened, I suppose it was another random blogger "fritz" and while making a change to my post, it just disappeared. I will say that last Friday I went to the doc for my annual physical and believe it or not except for the weight I need to lose and the mild depression it seems I was in, I am healthy as a horse. No cancers, no high blood pressure, no diabetes, no heart problems, no joint problems or arthritis or anything. I am for the most part, a healthy person. So why did I hurt all the time? The way it was described to me is think of a bowl in your brain, and that bowl is constantly being filled with serotonin so your body can dip into the bowl when it needs it. Well suddenly the body goes into overdrive and takes more and more and isn't replenishing fast enough. I was always in pain because my body was just not able to repair itself. This week though, with the help of medication, I really do feel better. I was against taking anything at first because 1) I thought it would exude a personality that wasn't me and 2) I was afraid of having to use it for the rest of my life. But I do know now that I am the same person I was before only in less pain and much more energetic, positive and happier and I actually look forward to the day instead of dreading it. When DH and I argue, instead of crying because I don't know what else to do, I stand up and face the argument head on. I no longer feel worthless and hopeless, I actually feel like I can be my old self now. My hope is that as I lose the weight, my hormones will return to normal, my body can regulate it's own production of serotonin and I won't need the medication. But for now, it is helping me heal myself and I am eating right, exercising and looking at life through positive eyes and that is such a great start.

I realized something too. Why are so many people on medication or feeling stressed? Well, many people these days take on way more than they can handle. This multitasking thing is crap. When you come into contact with someone who resonates pride because he or she can multitask, I suggest turning around and walking in the other direction. Most multitaskers are under stress and I'm sorry but there is no way your brain can function efficiently doing five things at once. And when you do attempt five things at once (as I sometimes do), you can't do them efficiently. I have lost my ability to listen (not "hear" but "listen") because of this. I am regaining that. I will hear DH but am I listening? No. I am busy doing too many other things at the same time. I don't like that, I have to learn to pay attention again and do one thing at a time. I was so much better off that way.

I heard something the other day that makes total and complete sense. We are working to always raise our tolerance to stress so we can handle more and more right? We should be doing the opposite. We should be lowering our tolerance to stress so that we know when to step back and take a breath. If we continue to try and raise our tolerance we only take on more and more crap, which causes more stress, and ultimately the human mind and body can only handle so much until it finally cracks.

So now I am working to lower my tolerance therefore I will know when I have to put on the brakes and say "WOAH!". I'm not going to try and live anyone's life for them anymore nor am I going to try and control things I have no control over. I am not going to fret over "what might happen" till it happens and I am not going to panic. Yeah I know, easier said than done right? It can be done. Also, I am going to try not to obsess so much with certain little things in my life like my grades. I am obsessed with making A's because I have been doing it consistently nowand I got into the mode that anything less in unacceptable. Well a B+ and B is acceptable, in fact I earned a "B" in my Astronomy a few semesters ago and it was a well-earned "B" because that course was a tough one. I was proud of it. I just have to learn to do my best and I will be assigned the grade I have earned from that hard work.

The way I see it, we are only given a certain finite period of time to live on earth and then we are gone forever. There's a reason we are all here, ALL of us have a purpose. I am not sure what mine is, but I would much rather be in the driver's seat experiencing it than just a passenger. I haven't gotten to the point where I am in complete control but I am getting there one step at a time. :)

A sad story from Western Pennsylvania...

This is a really sad story from the Warren Ohio Tribune-Chronicle

Wanda and Dick Reigelman were the sister and brother in law of a very lovely woman who I have had the pleasure of working with for these past ten years. This is just a devastating story. In a sad twist, the fifteen year old girl who hit them also died later from her injuries. She only had her license five days.

This is just so sad.

Thursday, August 03, 2006

Close-minded people...

**Edited...I really hate useing the word "stupid" anymore and I'm trying to get away from it, so I changed the title to "close-minded" and edited the reference to stupid and asshole. There has to be a reason people who don't believe in God or religion chastise those who do...but I guess it doesn't make them "bad".

If there's one thing that bugs the crap out of me it's people who think THEIR way of thinking is the only way of thinking, especially when it comes to religion. I ran into someone I used to work with who was preaching to me today there was no such thing as God and it reminded me of a discussion forum I used to belong to that was mostly women. I recall that every now and then there was a discussion about religion. And every time the discussion came up, one specific individual who prides herself in her so-called scientific mind and college education usually degrades those who "believe" and tells them what morons they are for believing in God, Jesus and the Bible. She thinks people are stupid for not using what she calls "scientific reasoning" and she comes right out and belittles and degrades their beliefs. I always found it appalling that such an intelligent person could be so close-minded.

I am not a Christian. I was not raised one way or the other, but I was raised to respect all religions. My father was raised Christian and my mother is Jewish, her paternal grandparents having been Orthodox Jews. I'm still trying to find my way but one thing is that I believe there is a higher power. I am not sure exactly what it's all about yet but for everything in this universe to have been created and laid out like it is, that's one hell of a coincidence, one hell of a plan coming together without something in charge of it. Then the question is "if God created it all, who created God?"

I have varying theories for the creation of our universe, but I am trying to find my way. But you will never hear me telling someone I disagree with that their "religious" beliefs are shit. I wasn't brought up like that.

Welcome to hell...

Ahh it's Thursday, but it feels more like Friday. I had my bi-weekly Wal-mart experience today which I like to refer to as "Welcome to hell". Now this Walmart is in the very rural area of North Florida, I mean very rural, where married couples look so much alike one begins to wonder if you know what I mean. Well, there's something I noticed today that I hadn't noticed before. Maybe it's a trend or maybe there's just a lot of handicapped people in this area but nearly every other person, mostly women, in that store in the age range 55-80 were in their own personal motorized scooter things.

I know a lot of people have mobility problems and it's hard to stand up for long periods of time and move around so I completely understand their need to get around. And it's better that they use a scooter to get around than be homebound and dependent on others right? But so many? How could so many younger people, and I think 50's is young, be that unable to move? I'm just saying that around the first of the month when the checks come in it's like a scooter convention in there. And some of them are so rude. One woman damn near ran over me and looked at me like I was in her way. Hey lady, I got my own problems ok? And then I looked at her with that "I'm medicated, don't fuck with me" look and she turned around and went the other way.

Wow, that psycho look thing really works! I love to do it to kids in the aisles who are running around taking groceries off the shelf and flinging them, blocking the aisle and being bratty. One look sends them crying to momma, who ironically isn't minding them, no, she's halfway across the store in the juniors department insisting to the sales person that yes she can fit her size 22 ass into a size 7 jeans.

Oy.

Alas, like most anything else, this scooter thing could just be a trend, and I'm just behind the times. I mean I don't even know what an Ipod is, I don't have a blackberry and I don't have a cell phone with music on it--- hell I don't even have a cell phone. So maybe I just missed the boat on the scooter craze.

And finally, you know, I was thinking about watching "The Patriot" today, yes I have it on DVD and watch it often because for all you sudden Mel haters, I LOVE MEL GIBSON MOVIES. In fact I have found the more cursing he does the better the movie. And then "it" hit me and so I did a photo search online and found what I was looking for.

Sorry Mel, nothing personal but this is really funny:

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Mel the antichrist?

I've known for a long time that Mel Gibson was just one screw-up away from being crucified by the media. I mean let's face it for the most part he's a devoted husband, father of eleven children, and he's a staunch Catholic, and has never really gotten himself into any trouble. But just because his chosen profession is acting, the media thinks they have the right to hang him out to dry.

The media does this crap with all celebrities and I for one am sick of it. I am sure as hell glad I'm not hung out to dry for some of the stupid shit I've said in my life. The difference between me and Mel though is that he's a celebrity and I'm not. And somehow the media (and many people) believe that celebrities have to be held to higher standards. I say bullshit! Where in hell did that mode of thinking come from? Mel is just a man, a man whose job requires him to portray roles for money. He's rich because many of us enjoy his movies. But he owes us NO accountability. He's not an elected official, he is in no position of authority over the American people. The only people he needs to account to are himself and his family. But instead of letting him live his life and face up to his mistake which is drinking and driving, every major media outlet is running stories ranging from whether or not his wife is angry at him to Hollywood being split on his fate to whether or not anyone will ever hire him again.

WHO CARES?

It's Mel Gibson's life and his problem. Alcoholism is a disease and it requires treatment and it seems like this latest made him realize he hit rock bottom. His treatment is his business, his relationship with his family is his business, and whether or not he makes another movie in Hollywood is his business. It's not my business or your business or the business of the media.

I'm not defending Mel's behavior by any means, the man needs some serious help. But I am more outraged at the media circus (not just for Mel, but for all celebrites) and I knew that the first time he stepped out of bounds the media would be all over him like flies on shit and I was right. It's been that way since he made "The Passion of the Christ" when Jewish groups and some others came out and said his movie was anti-semitic. They've been waiting for a weak moment and they got it.

Mel Gibson is only human and humans are prone to weakness at times and making mistakes. Mel screwed up big time but so have I, so have you. Many of us have said and done some pretty bad things in our life. But it was our business and we handled it as we saw fit. Mel should be able to do that too without the media hounding him.

If Mel Gibson has issues with Jews, he needs to work them out. From what I have read over the years about him, he has never shown an hate or aggression towards Jews and no one in his profession who has worked with him has ever claimed he has shown anti-semitism. Obviously Mel Gibson is angry about something and given recent events in the Middle East, something very well could be raging within him. Who knows? The bottom line is that if Mel truly wants to get through this and be a better person he will and I hope for his sake he does. Perhaps he can understand what has made him so angry and he can get past it.

I will say this. It was nice of him to apologize but does he really owe the Jewish community an apology? No. Why should he owe any of us anything? I don't even think as a fan of his movies he owes me an apology. We're nobody to him, the people who matter most to him are his family. If he can get their forgiveness for his behavior then he will be able to overcome his alcoholism and his rage and become a better person. And if he never made another Hollywood movie that's fine, nobody needs fame and fortune to be a good person.

And one more thing for the record and this has been a long time coming.

Harvey Levin is a schmuck. That's right a SCHMUCK.

I have had this opinion for a very long time. This former attorney and legal reporter turned tv personality turned head of a celebrity smut and gossip site considers himself to be a journalist.

OH PLEASE HARVEY, YOU WISH!!!

Walter Lippmann, Edward R. Murrow, Upton Sinclair, Walter Cronkite, Martha Gellhorn, I.F. Stone, Joseph Pulitzer, now THOSE are great journalists. Harvey Levin is a big fat joke to think he can put himself and his smutty website in that category.

Levin is a worthless slimebag who gets his rocks off reporting on the miseries, troubles and heartbreaks of famous people. He says he does it because he says people have a "right to know". But he really does it because he's a morally bankrupt piece of human crap who makes money capitalizing on the misery of famous people.

Oh, I'd love to know what skeletons Harvey has in his closet.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Today was a great day...

Today was a great day.

I got up at 4 am and took a 39 minute walk on the grated road outside our house. It's off the main highway so it's safe, there's only about a half dozen of us that live on this stretch. It's wide, flanked by trees on both sides and there was a blanket of stars to guide. me. The only thing that sucked was the moon wasn't out so I had to carry a flashlight. In the old days when I lived at home with mom and dad, the moon would light my path and I'd walk the long circular path on the front half of their property. I measured this distance I am walking and one way is 4/10 of a mile. So, if I'm right it would mean that means four round trips would be 2.4 miles. (right?) LOL.

Had a lot to do at work but got much of it done. If I'm not going to feel guilty about taking yet more time off at the end of this week, I really want to clear up all the loose ends. School starts in a few weeks, we've got new students coming in and I want to be ready. I am usually farther ahead of my game than I am right now but I'm not behind. It's been a good but busy summer. People know me to be ahead of the game, I don't want to disappoint them but I want them to understand even I need down time. Even I need to back off being so efficient and good at what I do. I don't mean be a slacker, I just mean don't be so obsessed with being a perfectionist esp. at work.

Deb and I had lunch today and it was positive, productive. We make a terrific team. We both know that, other people have told us that. It's like this, she's the thinker, I'm the doer. It's not that she can't do and I can't think it's just that she is the creative one and I can take her ideas and apply the details and together we come up with one hell of a finished product. We can both say "we knew each other when" and there's no friggin way one of us can get anything past the other. I know damn well I couldn't pull the wool over Deb's eyes (and why would I?) I really want one person on this earth who knows when I'm bullshitting them--why? So I don't bullshit them. Does that make sense? Deb keeps me honest and I hope I keep her honest too LOL.

Anyway we had lunch today and discussed some strategies for our lives. I tell ya at the end of our lunch, I said "ya know Deb this is the first time in a long time we've had lunch and not complained about something" and we both laughed. It's true! Usually I'm bitching about an argument I had with DH or him not getting along with my parents, or my dad's health or something that's on my mind and she complains about her job and other things going on. Today we were totally focused on the positive and we didnt' even set out to do it that way, it just happened. We have a common goal, actually many. But one thing is that we both want to be happy.

I used to just think we were on our way, now I know we are.